learn how to let go

Maybe it's not a good words "let go" because actually you can't just learn how to do it. You need to be mature enough. And i'm not the person that can be called mature. But each day, I've been learning all the time since all the trouble was getting more and more hard. I am confused,tired,and selfish. Just keep saying that "I can't take this anymore" or "it's too much" or "this is not the way I want it to be" or something like "maybe if we could go back to the past I will never try to love you" nonsense. Maybe it's rough,and i need to be tough, maybe I am going to leave you behind. But, I just can't. Why? I don't know exactly. Maybe because I have a great time with you :) even if I have to suffer, suffering with my own cruel thought childish and nonsense. Sorry to let you be the "good man" which is good for me but not for you and your family.

May the good things will always be with us, and the bad things will be our guidance to learn something